So I have been thinking, well I ALWAYS think about all the stuff I wish i fit into my life. Things I used to spend a lot of time doing, but that have been replaced by life, jobs, relationships and the moments you spend trying to hang on to an hourglass life that seems to dwindle faster every day. So I decided to make a list. A list of things I used to do all the time, but now rarely have time to miss. The purpose is hopefully to get me motivated. We'll see.
1. Make Music.
Music has always been a GIGANTIC part of my life. My dad is a drummer, my mom could carry a tune in her heyday, where she sang backup in a few local bands. My brother and I picked it up very naturally. When we were young we would sneak MTV, watch Dad play in bars way past our normal bed times, sing across the hall to each other when we where supposed to be sleeping... We were surrounded by it. We both mimicked our favorite pop musicians, and we could both actually sing! We both played guitar, Nick excelled at it. We both loved being musical. I think it must have been when I started design school that I played and sang less and less. I was never much for practicing, and its much easier when you can practice in your basement with microphones and all the other equipment. It fell off, and I have picked up my guitar only a handful of times in the last year or so. I've seen more concerts in the last few years than I have picked up my guitar. Sad. Not that I want to perform in front of people, or pursue a music career at all (I am VERY very shy about performing. seriously.) but it would be nice to practice more so that eventually i can pass that same love onto my kids or nieces/nephews.
2. Writing
I'm sure everyone had those angst filled, late night, wish I didn't have a ten o'clock curfew evenings of pouring your heart and imagination out on some paper. No? Just me? Okay. Well, I have a few volumes... poetry mostly, and a few rants about mean girls or soulless boys. I used to write all the time! It was such therapy! Well, this one I'm trying to resolve in a more digital manner, via this blog. Workin' on it.
3. Snowboarding
This is a huge part of who I am. I started snowboarding when I was 15. 14 years ago. I remember when it was still like, FROWNED upon... anyway, I used to go riding seriously, 50+ days a year. That is a ton, I realize now. Here I was going for even more when I was young... I would love to have the energy to even think about it. I used to instruct, which at the time wasn't actually very fun, because then I wanted to be riding instead. But now I feel like that would be a great way to be out there. No it would still suck. Rather get the pass. Anyway like I was saying, used to go all the time. Really always loved the subculture of snowboarding—the music, the people, the shenanigans. All seems so whimsical, when you're too young to do hard time. Now, especially living in Colorado, I find it harder than ever to go! Sounds fucking backwards, and I'm sure there are plenty of people ( I kNOW there are MILLIONS of people) that make the journey west each weekend, sacrificing eight hours in a car, even longer in lift lines... and snowboard in the famous champaigne powder of Colorado. Sounds so worth it. I don't feel like it is. I would much rather take a week off, get a condo, and head west than try to get a couple hours in for $85 a person. Because lets be real people, these aren't mole hills we're talking about. These are real deal Evander Holyfield Mountains. The Rocky Mountains, where weather changes on the tip of a dead pine tree and Northface jackets abound. Its hard! Its for only the most seasoned athletes! Think I'm joking? COME TRY! Haha. No its fan-fucking-tastic but a huge pain in the ass. I need to go more, thus the blog here. Moving ON!
4. Talk on the phone
This isn't something I feel like I really WANT to do more, but I did used to be a chatterbug. Now its like I can barely send a text!? What gives? Is all of this list an innocent victim of technology and at-your-finger-tips culture? I don't know, but I just realized that my list is four items deep and two are involving some sort of communication...
5. Excersize
So this is a biggie. I was a fat kid, always. I got tired of it and lost 50 lbs. in highschool. I kept it off for about... 4 years. I was living at home, working, going to community college. Then I went to Big Girl College and forgot all about myself. It was a very tough school, and anyone that thinks their program at like, state college, or anywhere else was tough, think again. Seriously. I've tried telling people how mother fucking busy I was, and I'm pretty sure people think I'm exaggerating. But I know about 30 other people that graduated with me in December of 2005 that would tell you as well, that shit ain't no joke son. Its one of the top private art schools in the country, and I lived by myself (unless you count my drunk, unconcious "Fibers Major" roomate as not being alone) in downtown Detroit. All that is why I gained weight, I just realized. haha. I was surrounded in stress from morning till wait, morning?? Never pulled so many (and we arent talking like 2) all-nighters in my life. Thank you CCS. You still own me. Anyway, even when I was there doing homework 23 hours a day, I still managed to go to the gym WAYYYY more than I do now. Must have been the sleep deprivation. I'm getting to much sleep... that's it.
I suppose thats a pretty good list to read over and over again to get motivated. I feel like I could write a whole seperate blog about CCS right now, even though I have blocked most of the constant rejection out of my mind.... haha just kidding I LOVE YOU CCS YOU COMPLETE ME. Jenn I hope you read this haha. and amanda. anyway maybe this will inspire YOU TOO!
peace and chicken grease.
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